Nothing says “summer!” like more work.

If I had known when I was younger that growing up meant sacrificing my summer to work, I would not have been so hasty to mature. Sure, it’s what’s expected and all that, but I really hate the idea of giving up my last couple of summers as a teen to work.

Anyways! 

As the last few weeks of school sloooowly counts down, and the job hunt comes to a halt (I landed a restaurant–the exact kind of place i didn’t want to work), I find myself more stressed and therefore irritable than usual. And I’ll be damned if mom hasn’t noticed.

Of course she’s worried. She thinks I’ll go back to how I was in middle school. I won’t. I’m just stressed, and fed up with society and school and teachers and work and bullshit. I swear the only things keeping me sane right now are Pinterest and my ceramics class. Seeing as my boyfriend has been busy for the last for weeks with soccer and still has a couple weeks more, I’ve had more time left to my own devices. Mostly, I just ended up watching a lot of anime on Netflix.

The reason I’m coming off so mean, I’m sure, is because of how sick to death I am of people badgering me to do shit for them, as if I don’t have enough work to do on my own.

Sometimes, I really hate people. The end of the school year is one of those times.

It doesn’t help that there’s been this whole dramatic thing with the girl that is supposed to be my best friend, but that’s a different story.

I feel like I had all these plans, and they’ll never get done because I’m too busy doing what other people ask of me. Chores, schoolwork, restaurant work, the stress of being in this town, and that bitch that took one look at my hair and said I wasn’t mature.

Well fuck you too. If that’s how you talk to your employees, I don’t want to work there anyways.

I am so done with socializing this year.

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I’ve Returned from my Journey to the Netherworld

It’s been a while since I was serious about blogging, and for that I am sorry (mostly for myself, because this was a good release of tension and I really could’ve used that over the past few months).

So anyway, I have returned!

Let’s see, my hair is lavender, my favorite color is lavender (haha), I’ll be 16 in about a month and a half, I’ve become addicted to my X-Box (which I got for Christmas), I’ve been listening to Ghost Town lately (meaning they’ve been on repeat for three weeks), and…… pfft, I’m sure there’s more but I’ll remember it later. OH! My boyfriend and I were commissioned by our Language teacher to write a novel this semester. Not going so great, that.

As I sit here listening to, you guessed it, Ghost Town, at one a.m. on a school night, all I can think about is how much I most sincerely do NOT want to go to school tomorrow. Not only because they screwed up my online French class so I’m stuck in Journalism AGAIN, but because I am so far ahead in so many of my classes that holding up to wait on everyone else is just becoming tedious. Like in Geometry, I’m on lesson 8.3 despite the fact we haven’t eve taken the chapter 7 test yet.

And my teachers, oh god they are all on my last nerve, with the single exception of my ceramics teacher. Last semester half of them promised that if we kept our grades up we could be exempt from finals, well THEY LIED. I only managed to get out of two of the promised four finals. Though I did pass with all A’s, so that’s good I guess.

By the way I encourage everyone to listen to Ghost Town. Cue: Tentacles

It feels like my entire experience with both 2013 and 2014 have been nothing but exasperating. Teachers are being idiots, adults are getting nosier, other teens are drinking and f*ucking and smoking more and more and MORE……… and I’m just sitting on my bed surfing the internet, always.

You know, I should be in dance right now. Ballet. Pointe. Twirling and prancing and feeling good about myself for once, but no. Even that was taken from me by a dumbass teacher that thought everyone could do hurdles without any prior experience with track. There were at least four other people on crutches as a result, and my knee never healed correctly so even if I can manage ballet again, I will never be able to go back on pointe. Of course, the doctors swear there’s nothing wrong. The X-Rays didn’t show anything, and our insurance wouldn’t cover an MRI so I couldn’t see anything there either. But I can feel it–my leg sliding in half. I have this deep-seeded fear that one day I’ll be walking down stairs or climbing up or hiking or running, and half my leg will come with me and the other half will snap off. It’s really very unsettling.

Did I mention I love Ghost Town? Cue: Monster

And my boyfriend, because it was his amazingness that fixed everything up again, and we’ve just passed the milestone of one year and eight months, a feat rarely reached by teens nowadays. He’s been so supportive this whole time, and I really don’t deserve it, but it’s because of him that I’ve really begun to enjoy life again, and that’s something I never thought I’d feel again.

Cue: Dreamer

Also my art has improved! Tons, actually. Check it out:

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And so on.

Cue: Game Freak

So, despite my very frustrating run-ins with humans lately, my neutrality reigns high. I really couldn’t care less about anything at all right now.

Anyways, I just wanted to say hello, lovelies 🙂 so hello!

School is a waste of time as is, and here’s why:

Seriously, when will the volume of a circle times the year the Constitution was written plus the area of a frog’s heart EVER come in handy?

I don’t need to multiply purple and George Washington to know how many apples there are on the moon, I can count.

Seriously, I think there should be more pressure on teens to know the career path they want by freshman year so they only have to take classes necessary for that path. Yes it’s useful for some people to know things like history or complex algebra, but personally? Not me! All I need is chemistry, a few art classes, and some language classes. And French. I reallllyyyy want to learn French. Sadly, it’s heard for me to learn outside of a classroom environment and there is no French class offered here. Ugh. 

But back to the original idea!

Kids are wasting time, motivation, and willpower on learning subjects that will be of no use to them in life. If you want your kid to have good grades, teach him/her subjects they’re actually interested in. If they love arts of various sorts, put them in art and language classes. If they love science, stick them in biology or chemistry. Or Physical science but that’s a *ahem* bull shit *cough cough* class. If your child is struggling with a subject, find one better suited. School is to prepare them for THEIR lives, not to create drones that all spew out the same information. It’s not to compete with other school, it’s supporting individual people. They always tell us we’ll need this later in life. Well, I asked one of my favorite substitute teachers that is in his fifties now if algebra ever came in handy.

He said not once in his life has he ever used algebra outside of school.

Not.

Once.

Teachers tell us LIES.

Like the state studies class I’m taking.

 I DON”T NEED TO KNOW ABOUT THE RUSSIAN FUR RUSH I’M NOT STAYING HERE.

Another example of a bull shit class.

Half the things they teach us are completely USELESS. They say they care about the students, but they’re not giving us room to figure out what we’re doing! They’re not letting us chase after our dreams because they’re forcing us to take unnecessary classes just to graduate.

And I know that some people want to be engineers and doctors and such. So let them take the Calculus 5 and Biology 3 classes. Everyone would be happier, partially because the biggest problem is school is students’ attitudes in the classroom because we alll don’t want to be there.

But, if you only put people in that wanted to be there, suddenly so much more gets accomplished and everyone is happier. Happy students, happy school, better grades. 

I know that the biggest concern is that there’s be a bunch more people giving up on school as a result, and only enrolling in things like photography or auto shop. But I really believe that having more of a choice will change kids’ perspective, make school more fun, and less of a pain in the ass.

Seriously, none of my classes right now will ever come in handy. So I hate going to school, partly because it’s filled with high-off-their-ass or drunk half the time dumb ass whores, but partly because I feel like I’m wasting my times, and the teachers’ time. None of this is useful to me. I’d be so much happier going to school if I had ceramics again, and art, language, chemistry and business math. Maybe even photography, I like taking pictures and would love to try it “professionally”. But the language thing? I’m writing that novelly thing (somebody, PLEASE read it and tell me what you think, it’s under metro station called &&jagged) and I want to hone in my writing skills and be a better writer. Who knows? Maybe someday I’ll publish a book and it’ll be a best-seller. Chemistry and  business math? My college plan is beauty school, and someday, I want to run my own salon. And seriously, those are all you need for beauty school. Those, and being pretty social, which I’ll have to work on.

I’M SO ANTI-SOCIAL.

Anyway.

I have school tomorrow. Today. And it’s midnight. So I’m  off to bed.
Night 🙂

Haii Thurr :3

The first week of last quarter seemed to trudge on more months, though that very obviously isn’t the case. I had basically flipped my sleeping schedule over break, becoming a night owl, like I’d choose to be if I could, so the sudden wake up call at seven a.m. left me sluggish and irritable all week. I even fell asleep during biology  one day. Thankfully, the teacher didn’t notice. 

By the way, if you’re interested in my creative writing, I post that on Booksie. Same username, because I use it for everything. It’s my internet identity 😀 my name is SirensCalling and I live in Narnia. That’s just how it is.  But yeah! Booksie! check it out, please 🙂

So, Aside from my chemically-impossible hair and general distaste for school, things are pretty normal. School…… I’m just fed up with it. I used to be able to come up with at least one class I genuinely liked, but not anymore.

Oh right, the hair.

So I dyed it green after I bleached out the rainbow. And it’s turning blue. How is that even possible?? I KNOW that blue turns green because there’s copper in blue dye. But how does the inverse occur? Just…. How? I mean, it’s really pretty and all, but I’m so confused.

Oh, and I’ve also been drawing quite a lot. I posted them all to the page I made for pictures, but here’s my favorites: 

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Just to get you interested in checking, haha ^^

Also, I’ll be changing my background picture soon. Not because I don’t like it, because to be perfectly honest I love it. I just feel like it scares people off and I’d really like to have more followers, and more of my posts liked and commented on. So I want to try to make my blog more…. approachable.

I’ll miss my little monster 😦

 

Sick Days and Missing Him

I’ve been confined to my room for two days now, coughing, and coughing, and coughing to the point where I was sure I’d start coughing up blood (I haven’t, but I still think I might). It made me really sore, you know, 48 hours of whole body jerking coughs, though right now I’m more worried about my hurting-to-move collarbone. 

I ended up watching a lot of movies to pass the time. Beetlejuice, Ruthless People, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Groundhog’s Day, and a disc and a half of Firefly have had their turn in the DVD player as I mope, wrapped in blankets on my bed. I’m thinking I’ll finish Firefly and move on to the Underworld movies. 

My boyfriend, however, is out of town for hockey this weekend. Least he’s actually accomplishing something. I know his team won the first two games, pretty sure they lost the last one. But hey, all in good fun, right? He managed not to get hurt,  with the exception of one cut that nearly needed stitches. At least he didn’t break anything. 

School!

School……..

Meh xP

I can’t wait for summer. I’m so fed up with school. Or at least spring break, I mean, this semester is going by so incredibly slowly. It’s annoying to think it’s not even February yet. Which means a whole ‘nother semester of Drama. I don’t like that class, I’m horrible at performing. 

Hmmm….. I want Wheat Thins…… That’s better.

Oh right! So that story thing I have? Read. Please. And tell me what to do with it, because I don’t know. I’ve just been dragging it on and on, with no real story line or anything. So please comment what direction you think I should take it.

And that’s all I really have to say 😛 so yeah.

Byee

 

Damn Cough

I’ve been coughing for like, a month. It just won’t stop. And it’s not a serious cough, it’s more like “there’s something tickling my throat so my brain is gonna make me cough till it’s gone”. And it sucks.

 So! second quarter of high school. It’s alright. I’ve got a 4.0 apparently haha 🙂 I’m really mad at ceramics being clay is a temperamental jacka**. And all my classes are boring. Oh well, at least it’s a three day week 😀 I love short weeks! 

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I’m seriously craving cream soda right now, but we have none. Grr. 

Anyways!

I went skating yesterday, and felt so totally not graceful, because my sports-addict boyfriend does hockey.  He was skating circles around me haha xD what a show-off. Word of advice, don’t go skating with hockey players.

Also! He is banned from Firefly and Romancing the Stone, a freakin amazing series and one of the greatest chick flicks of all time. Why? It’s complicated. 

And!

I am so utterly disappointed with my generation.

How can you not know what Dark Crystal and Princess Bride are? I mean. Really. How can you be raised without seeing Beetlejuice or Nightmare Before Christmas at  least once. How can you grow up not knowing about these things? It’s unacceptable!!!! CLEARLY I was raised in the right family xD Sudden respect and immense love for them both, and my perfect childhood. 

That is all :3

Addictions

Initially, people will hear the word addiction and automatically assume you’re talking about drugs or sex or alcohol or other socially tabooed things in life. However, as humans become more reliant on technology, sudden addiction becomes much more simplistic. Suddenly, there’s addictions to things like video games, texting, blogging, and surfing the internet to get away from things that actually need to get done. 

Truthfully, there’s plenty of addictions out there. Food, technology, fitness, getting skinny, getting pretty, being wanted. Sure, some of that is really just an obsession. But it’s the habits within the obsession that make it an addiction. 

Personally? I am obsessed with Bioshock. I play that game more than anything else. Out of I think 85 achievements (between both games) you can get without the add-ons or Xbox live? I have 8 left. Just. Eight. The game isn’t even scary anymore! I can narrate it. I start the game, turn down the sound, stick my headphones in and listen to my own music and I’m STILL never surprised by splicers (we have surround sound, so when you use it it’s easy to pinpoint where someone is speaking from or where something is happening).

Actually, now that I’m thinking about it, there’s plenty of things I could be called addicted to. Especially in my generation, we are vulnerable to what the world has to offer. It’s easy to get caught up in something.

Anyway! I was only thinking of this because I have WordPress, instagram, and now Tumblr, and began wondering about technological addictions. So goodnight 🙂 I know I haven’t been on much, with school and all, I’ve been soooo out of it. It’s not that it’s hard, I just really hate 90% of my teachers and it’s just so boring. School sucks!